freestylers from all around the world are improving at a damm fast rate.

I just started out sole stall today, felt so blessed to have the feeling, my thigh is so strained now. I hope i can practise with passionate mood tmr again. 1 hour normal practise, 1 hour sole stall. All the best

got 3rd place in Mface, stand a chance to genting and fight again! the feeling was great and satisfying, looking back at the video, I was smiling and my performance is better in terms of stability and confidence, even though there was some minor mistake but i recovered from it. Now we gonna redesign another sense of humor type of performance for the final on March next year, i hope i will come up with new tricks by March.

Went through 1st day of praying, bai tian gong, seriously I am not really in a good mood because it sort of ruin my weekend after coming back from johor, but what can i do, just bear with it.

Tmr going to KLCC to perform for CSR for NGO. Gonna use back the track and same performance, gonna record some ulti to put in promo video. Lets see how it goes.

I cant post the Mface photos yet. I cant afford to let other freestylers in Msia to grab the chance, seems selfish and thinking too much, but i just have to wait.

real Insurance job will start on December, i hope i can cope with it! slacking now really....

Mface here i come!

prepare all the technical combos

I hope i can freestyle later to wash my sin away. Been partying and wasting time on having fun recently. I was being a hypocrite. Or u can say I am always being a hypocrite. 

Tan Jun Hin, stop watching my blog

refrained from mistake today, talked things out.

Finally, I have to let it go, mistakes are not to be repeated.
YES, I did it...YES YES YES...I am not wrong, I let go.

THings to do after letting go
1) accept the fact that i need to pay attention to work
2) freestyle tricks/transition GONNA master them
3) be myself.

Dunno why drinking is in line with social activities, I can only make few friends that share the same value with  me.

Life is about how u value them, not about how many friends u have made, it depends on quality not quantity, i am happy enough if i am mixing with the right group of frens.

Life is sadly about physiological egoism, thats the way i think, some friends are meant to help u in ur career, or really know what u wanna achieve in life, some friends might stay in ur way, or simply just wanna hang out for the sake of 'friends having fun together' type. I am tired of all this.

I am an extrovert in outer, but i hold my own value as an introvert. I already know what i wan in my life. and what brings me the most satisfaction.

I worried about my future in MSIG, i might be drinking a lot due to the social norm, i gonna stick to my own value no matter what. I HATE excessive drinking.

430am, i dissapointed some friends. But who cares. I move on. Night peeps.

the best way is the current way.

Puchong, Setapak and Bukit Tinggi, RM 450 for one day, 3 days will be RM 1350.
That means one person get RM 675, for 6 freaking sets. Aihz such a low rate. Damm, but look for long term yo. One set RM 112.5...lowest rate ever. promise to do 10mins...not possible, gonna speak more and do more interaction then....

even myself finding myself being weird. I couldnt stop behave like that. Why?!

I cant take care of others because i couldnt take care of myself...lolz...

Maybe i shud really change...for the sake of future

I hate myself sometimes because i cant focus on one single thing for a period of time, but i can actually do that only during freestyling.

I am still tired right now, body heat suddenly increase just now after non-air conditioned state.

anyone live life just for passion and not money? I still love money though. But I felt myself dun have the urge to really earn a lot of money, i felt like living a simple life with only my passion, i nid money for that. Or another way round, i can make money out of it. Continue work hard then.

I am exhausted, things happen for a reason, I gotta pull myself away from the trap, and start controlling myself, behaving myself and do things that i really wanted to do since last time. I like to daydream instead of executing things, thats a really bad side of me.

What's my life all about? I can do more meaningful thing, I dont have an aim now. what about my future career? what about my motivation?

nearly two months past in MSIG. once again, i made the same mistake again...since when i always do such mistakes, WHY?! I also cant figure out....anyway, things start to cool down now, i hope i can control myself now.

now come to freestyle football, ok from the past posts i can see that i have been training some ulti moves for certain time, two months for two moves lol....i can see some positive outcome at least in today training session, reluctantly start but end up with a good session with positive mood...i love knee stall ulti! woo hoo

slacking in morning and afternoon, but freestyling hard during night time lol

i learn how to breath while freestyling today, it yield great result! my knee stall is more stable during breathing....will practice knee stall ulti next training session again! fun! also the block move ulti.....nvr thought i could easily learn that trick sudddenly, now i need clipper and footbag swing head to complete my block journey..

working soon...will i still be able to freestyle during night? i dunno...and i m looking forward to my new graduations trainees colleagues...

fed up with gals who always post their own pics in facebook...i guess it is kind of a symptoms nowadays....'likes'...bring to a narcissism....


didnt answer calls from the company, end up being asked for another phone number...u called at dinner time so funny...for the past 3 days? gosh...u only called twice and i definitely called back but i didnt know who u are pls...y do HR department become so harsh...not that i cant withstand all this, but i think there is some problem with the guy...MSIG employees are leaving one by one...i guess i start to see why...

real world is coming, will work soon...get scold soon...i need high EQ...ppl will be making decision based on own self-interest, personal egosim. hell yeah..

team sport is fun, but i found more self-satisfaction doing freestyle football, what i can say is everybody going for what they wan in life and there is nothing wrong with that, so i guess it is not good to judge what ppl do.

muscles is aching today...i afraid that i cant freestyle later, but seriously there will be lesser chance once i start work, it would be so tiring. I really hope i can make a living out of freestyle, but life is cruel, i have to work harder now and face the reality, i m considered as lucky to have a secured job in future. I have to start picking up what i left out during adolescence stage. I am not that well-knowledgeable.

i am happy today, because i was out of breath and out of strength.

<3 freestyle and bodybuilding, i doubt about bodybuilding but i must do it start from now, i must keep my promise.

in love with the trick- knee stall, hopefully i can improve it tmr again...now off to abit of weight lifting!

didnt perform up to my own expectation today, end up emo-ing inside the car recalling back my mistake during performance. Then finally cooled down and head back to house, guess what, i freestyle again as i cant afford myself to be so bad in freestyle. I hate it when i cant achieve something that i always wanna achieve.

I have been training specifically on some tricks that either i have mastered or i nid to revised. It cause pain to my thigh muscle especially my left thigh muscle, i didnt know i got many limitations in freestyle until i get to try all those tricks. My wrist is weak, my core muscle is weak and i find it hard to balance myself using my left leg. Sooner or later, i hope i can overcome my body limitation.

Going to Taiwan soon with family, packing tmr, following tour therefore hopefully it will be a not-tiring trip.
I hope i can at least spare some time on training fs, september competition is coming soon, competitors are improving at a great rate, i must overcome my stage fright.

Working soon on august, nvr go for a job interview b4, i guess i nid to learn how soon.

gayboys...love you all

mood swing

腹泻 just now

30seconds routine training for freestyle hope it work out....maybe no time to train during August.
Freestyle for these few days have been so awesome, now i gonna train alone again

Laundry performance for free during Euro 2012 Final match, i hope i gonna have so much fun from it.

gonna list down the 30 seconds thingy soon.
gonna choose the right strategy....

went to office but end up doing nothing, gosh I start to slack again! damn...i hate it....was feeling sick after the pappa rich lunch with mum i guess my 4am/5am lifestyle kinda result in this.

If i could turn all my subconscious act into conscious act i could really achieve something, the problem is sometimes i didnt put in all my effort and instead i wasting time thinking about problem that i cant solve.

live your life.. shine baby

felt much better today, managed to get up 'early' in the morning and went to dad office to help. Learnt back the basics of paperwork in marine policy, managed to gel with aunties effectively, hopefully it all go smooth in the future.

atws are hard, i cant imagine how long ppl take to master some basic airmoves, they are really hard

I still havent fully recovered from the incident few days ago, i hope i can let her go but my heart aint gonna said yes. I got a very minimal chance now, should I wait? even if I stop waiting, i would not find another one.

Drinking, Smoking, Slacking are typical guys lifestyle. I still consider myself slacking now and I hope to minimize my slacking time. Peace!

Shitty day full of rejections

I was preparing to venture into my ideal and imaginary life, with her being a catalyst to my successful life.

I received two calls from suppliers, they both rejected me, i didn't know there will be another even huge blow coming towards me at late night, it was random and sudden, till i cant accept it at that time. It actually happened and it is indeed a very huge blow.

A lot of things happened, till it cant be recovered completely, I count myself as a lucky one, that i still manage to maintain contact with her. Yet, it still happen, shit happens. My effort was useless.

My bro taught me to be patient, there is still a minimal chance. I cant pretend that i lost hope, i will stay positive and keep it going, may the force be with me,

Freestyling soon, tmr will be a great day...ga yao cp.

wasted another day doing unproductive activities finished my blood omen 2 game today lol i wished she can talk to me 1st, therefore i choose to be silent today.

yes, i assumed no1 would notice the existence of this blog. it is 330am now, 2 more days for my last exam of my studying career, yes. mixed feelings I have high EQ i supposed, but somehow i got my own limit, sometimes I tricked myself. yes. but I really don't like how most of the guys behave, maybe i am the special one, being far too kind. I hate this feeling, I gonna stop all this. I HATE this...I deserve more respect. yes, I still putting hope on something I was trying hard to give up, but yet I cant. This is stubborn but I felt right doing it no matter what. Even it is quite controversial at 1st or in future, i still gonna go for it, i dun wanna make myself regret. I have been thinking so much and spending too much time on theory wise, without really putting effort into implementing my goals in life, I have been lacking so much general knowledge or whatever that i miss during my childhood or adolescence time, gladly that i have a super nice family that i really enjoy spending time with them these few years, i found myself spending time with them quite comfortable these few years compare to last time, maybe i ady figure out family love is always the best eternally, whilst I not really sure about friendship. I hope i still can hang out with my friends, but all this while I might get disgusted about what they did, I really duno sometimes, maybe it was my own problem, but sometimes i really need more respect, maybe I was really different with them. I need more appreciation, not teasing. I am still far away from my ideal life. Once again, I will try hard to fulfill them these few years, putting criticism aside, I guess i really have to work it out and work harder than i used to be. They are obstacles to my life but i gonna embrace myself, stand firmly, shout to the sky, stay individual and appreciate my own self-value, I got my passion of life, that is my inspiration, this is how i live my life, in a very special way and i would not change myself. I love being myself. FUCK all the problems, gonna sleep now, gonna make up my mind. Stay firmly, faith is in your own hand CP. I can definitely do it no matter what, fuck haters go and live ur ordinary life and continue to bring me the challenge. I would face them as a lesson and find what i really lack of, FUCK YOuuuuuu!!!!

laid off a bad habit today...hopefully i can continue... resume back to training today. gosh...CO atw and spin magic takes like forever hahaa....airmove is really hard.... screwed up Business Ethic but who cares...i just wanna graduate man...second upper is way far than wat i can achieve...i guess i m fairly satisfied so far with my marks...lol...kinda useless... two papers left...aihzz...so sad

no fucking stamina!! damm regret....

sore throat....being sick sucks...been sleeping too late lately... Somehow I dont like the party lifestyle, somehow i just need to conform... I will feel much more better if i could spend my time more on studying or freestyling, hopefully i can resume everything after monday. So exhausting these days....for sake of friends. acknowledge alot of new perceptions about relationship/love. Now i gotta remind myself not to fall into the same mistake again... Peace!

disgusted about the prospect of new relationship/love

Life is not only about that.

Hangover for the whole day, now feel much more better finally. but cant sleep also...tmr i gonna resume my freestyle training and meet up with friends again..no more class...ending uni life soon...so sad..

yeah...totally expected this....now we can only get extra money from one more show....future is bright, but with dark side of ppl....hell to the yeah man....we really get to know all those tricks behind the scene....

schedule is really tight for freestyle recently, got a strong urge to continue to improve now...been training on choreography recently for own campus and carlsberg routine instead of improving. didnt pull off my block combo in lp! what a waste....didnt meet my own expectation.

performance emphasize on choreography and storyline instead of moves, of course u need precise move for crowds, that what normal spectators demand....we do it too fast? LMAO...go fxxk urself...

I hope i can cope with all these busy commercials and shows...i really scared that i cant graduate soon....next week there will be more commercial coming ahead, i need to finish off my assignment! oh dear me!

expect to cramp my leg these three days....

I hope i can finish off tmr performance with perfection. time to earn some respect...gonna calm myself down....nottingham here i come!

few things to change/improve

1. dont be perasan so much

2. dont always announce/brag about/show off

3. gain more self-confidence (especially on stage)

4. gain more general knowledge

egoism strikes me again. dunno whether it is good anot, i guess it can really bring me some extra self confidence...

this week will be a memorable one...nvr thought i could appear in such a huge youtube ads before, transition moves finally pay off...haha

been focusing on ulti moves recently, become more like a battle type freestylers instead of an typical airmover beginner lol....

this week is challenging, two assignments to go and two performance to go....what a wonderful week for me...i will always rmb and appreciate what i have now before i venture into working life...one day, maybe i will work with my passion...who knows..it is possible after hearing wat my best fren said.

differentiate urself to earn respect, not by meeting other ppl expectation, live ur own life...be happy :)

I am sexy and i know it

this is the song i would be presenting to the nott with my freestyle moves...wahahaa
finally i can have a chance to perform in nottingham...this is my dream since year 1 i guess when i really get into freestyle....

felt good when my moves and level appreciate by other ppl...i wish i can do better in the show just like wat i did during training...i wish i can do more on the airmove/block part...need to get used to the 'chilling state' and the stage itself

friday and saturday i will be performing in sunway pyramid...wat a week man...it is like a dream come true for me....the MASairline ad itself made my day man....seriously...felt so grateful...

by the way, still nid to remind myself that i nid to finish two assignments on hand...haha...should start psychology soon this week...hopefully i can arrange my time nicely....

HEll yeah!!

get another reward today....felt so good haha....extra money hehe...

might stand a chance to perform in NUBS....for the 1st time! final sem...if i m performing this sem, it would be a dream come true and i will leave this nott campus with no regrets....keep up the good work, tmr i would be training my routine!

slack on saturday? hell no!!

freestyle, assignment, arrange notes!

no matter what industry/work/hobby u are in, if u maintain ur persistence and focus on yr goals, u can always achieve something !

picture ur goals. Live ur life to the fullest

strive for the best, future is bright.

bad habits are all black and white in color,i m gonna erase them from my life. future prospect are all colorful!

tomorrow plan would be playing snooker then staying productive for the rest of the day. gonna start studying soon, assignment and back to freestyle training, gonna nail old combo, spin magics and stuffs.

been sleepping too late lately.

effectively using NLP skills to keep me moving these few days, keep me motivated and I was really staying productive at most of the moment, today i break my own rule, i touched the bad habit again.

assignment was a huge stress for me, I cant find a suitable way to explain to her what we should really do for the sake of the whole group. Why she make life so hard for herself and others as well. sien.

didnt contact her for few days ady, a lot of question marks raise inside my head.

fuck it i hate staying inferior among my friends.

week 7 ending soon. sooner or later i will be moving into insurance industry, great eastern life insurance is really scary, keep convincing me...luckily i still know what i wan in future, hopefully i can reject him if he really call me.

life is uncertain, I have yet to reach any milestone in freestyle, 2 more months to enjoy freestyle while it last, i really hope i can make a business out of it when i will approach age around 40, job satisfaction is far more important than income in my opinion. at least now I m thinking like this, who knows after i start working i will find out all this while what i was doing is crap, i doubt that.

all the wrong moves in the wrong situation, I didnt play my own role well in my life, i made several big mistakes since i entered this Uni, i think i was trying to break through, but certainly what i was doing are all crap, I do not think much now, i just wanna finish my graduation and focus on my goals in life. Bullshit.

found myself really different with others. found myself naive because i was given education system from CH, seriously i hate that school, it gives bad impact on my life, i shouldnt have follow the route. I hate it when I was being an introvert and learning nothing at those ages. At least now i learned alot though.

patrick did a nori clutch, what a great satisfaction to c my freestyle fren finish nail the trick where we were dreaming bout it several years ago, i thought i was rejected for the commercial, but then it was nice to finally get myself a place in my 1st ever commercial, the experience and satisfaction are valued more than the rm800 itself. I would still fight for wat i love to do. Freestyle is still my main source of motivation in life, i learn how to endure more challenge.

520am now, eat whole day today, wonder I could have more time for hitting the gym, maintaining a great diet after i graduate anot. I think i will be extremely busy and tired after i graduate. I dun really look forward to a good relationship now, find it really not that important anymore. I got more freedom now.

mistakes are made, lessons are learnt. I hope i can really bounce back , be myself and enjoy the last sem with laughter, joy with my friends. i will sorely miss uni life, the slacking life, the having fun with frens life.

time to sleep, afternoon class tmr, havent take pictures yet, should do it soon.
I have made by far the worst ever mistake and i face it already, i hope to minimize my mistake in the future, gain more confidence and take control of my life more.

Peace out, looking forward to the commercial! finishing assignment and graduation trip!

freestyle progress-
co-atw-co? lol
clipper- havent nail it
sole stall- need better commitment
uppers- satisfied lol
sitdown- emptyness
handstand- ? lol cant even do a single baby freeze, what a limitation, my core muscles are weak... ==

fullstop. an endnote.

HELL yeah~

suddenly...i lost myself...

what i wan in life??!

sometimes give up is the best solution.

there are whole lot of meaningful priorities other than love.

rest for awhile....tired ady

learnt from mistakes, that is the most important lesson that i learnt......

back to training tmr, assignments, future planning....procrastination and finding excuses are for losers, not me...

2nd day of trying sole stall....managed to hold it for 1.2 seconds just now haha...bend more knee i guess....

spin magic made my waist tired like hell....i cant find the key yet....but persistence will lead me to success

tmr got replacement class...good i can go to campus....better than rotting in home....

gonna blog again now....

have to wait for a period of time again...
really tired of this, i knew it is not so easy after all.

guys social life, as usual

freestyle football, a little bit improvement

exam result, sucks, i think i didnt put much effort

live your life.

I wont post any more new post....cause i was just finding excuses for not making any efforts and staying pessimistic for too long time.

I really need to calm down and have d positive thinking that i once had last time.

PEACE out.

today i made a huge and brave step towards her. future is uncertain. what i know now is i m willing to wait for her.

boring cny....tmr going for frens' house visitation....have no fucking clue how to go to their house...due to my damm low sense of fucking direction....my life is boring as fuck now.....

paranoid life....confusing life....

cant control my mind well....

no point of going after her....didnt know her well

i made quite a few absolutely pointless decisions in my life....when will i settle down and think properly?

freestyle? i cant really move on to the next level....airmove/block is harder than uppers in my opinion....my core muscles cant really handle all the movement well....my stamina as well....i cant believe i still havent master spin magic....being stuck for such a long time....i should have mastered it and move on to the next move(clipper, atw, etc.)

my egoism still exist, i still go very extreme at certain issue....i dun like fortune tellers and how ppl get fooled by them, to me being a free thinker is the best....I cant really argue much cause there is no right or wrong on that, my bro even gave me some advice....wat i know is human are ignorant because they cant control their mind well....my point of view is the view in terms of psychology and science, everything is proved by science, not bull shit like spirit-ism....maybe i was wrong....but i find it quite make sense....believe in urself, rather than finding ur 'god' when u feel guilty....i wun bother about this anymore, coz it is a social norm and everyone will just stick to their own belief or religion, i m happy to stay away from this, again maybe i was wrong....

CNY is finishing, tmr there is a party in my house, gonna be fun! frens are coming....dear frens who always tease me lol.....opera clubbing tmr, i love the music! it is like breaking free from the restricted world....i love the feeling....

when uni open, i might find myself hitting the gym soon....i really think that once i start to work, there is no turning back, no time either for freestyle or workout....gotta start searching for job now maybe.....PEACE OUT

not really excited about CNY...dunno why...maybe i m too old enough for that excitement....anyway...quite fed up with all those horoscope and Chinese zodiac sign total bull shit....all they say was some general cold reading information which could apply on everyone ignorant human beings....I was once a victim who believe in such a thing b4....but now i realized it was all plain joke....and money making industry perhaps...

somehow i felt like everyone was hiding themselves with mask...pretending all the way....i guess it was part of the social skills and lives....

next few days gonna be nice because i will get to see my friends soon....

smoking and drinking is out of my dictionary....they should leave my life sooner or later....i hate both of them....i dunno why there is a conformity of guys smoking together....

didnt freestyle today....i guess i was being myself the best when i was freestyling....the 'live in own world' of me still exist and i cant find any reason that why i shouldnt continue to do this....some say this is immature but i felt comfortable staying at my own path, doing wat i like, ignoring wat i ignore, future is still on my hand. Chinese have to work hard....thats all....maybe i will awake someday...but i am fairly satisfied with my state of mind now....maybe when i finally venture into future career in future, i will find myself for being such a dumb ass because i was like 'staying in own world'

the 5th day of CNY is a big day for me, really looking 4ward to it....too many friends to socialize.....will I perform freestyle? still dunno yet....i think the possibility of getting drunk that day is higher....

totally in love with freestyle football after watching this....damm it....handstand style and airmoves at the same time? mind-blowing video editing....i was like damm motivated after watching this then i went off to do some training.....even though i still cant get spin magics done with ease....i guess i will still need to work on it and find the key behind it....just spare out some time for freestyle the feeling was nice...and satisfied....i still didnt really lose my touch...i need flow in my moves....tmr maybe i will train whole combo...groundmoves to block tricks...i need to become more stable....before move on to sitdowns and airmove, clipper etcs....i wonder how long i need to master my current moves before i move on to the next stage?

Financial market is the next paper...so far i think i did quite well in the 1st 3 papers...at least i put in effort...it is damm tiring to did 3 papers in a row....need endurance and strong determination man....



this is no doubt the best freestyle video i ever seen....

did fairly well for 1st 3 papers...at least i put in some effort....hahaha


freestyle later? not sure

damm it no mood to study AGS....

freestyled today around 3 am hahaha....exam coming soon ganbatte!

wahahah not studying waiting for miracles.....WTF am i doing? i still can save this shit! 3,4,5,6,7,8!! E and S tmr and international finance tmr!!! FML!