go club ytd with group of frens....witness best firework ever....not so crowded and the firework was like damm fucking near....the last few ones nearly hit all of us....i can see some greeting session and hugging session after that....everyone wishing everyone happy new year....such a satisfied way to celebrate the new year....leaving the stress of studying for exam aside ^^

I can sense alot of intentions inside the club....guys getting chicks, chicks hope to seek attentions from hot guys etc etc. It is funny as I m not even belong to that category, but it was fun being as a spectator and even i m tipsy....I am still able to witness all of these....new friends trying to hook up with each other......

nevertheless, i hope i can study for E and S today at least....didnt really sleep well these two days...dunno why....mentally tired but really cant fall asleep? stressful? lol i m always stressful when it comes to competition/exam....hahahaaa

To sum up all these, Happy new year to all of my fellow frens, family and i really hope to score in my exam and achieve my goals this year....maybe i will start gym-ing soon....maybe....

emotions let u down...concentration wun let u down....gotta stick to my life now....no point struggling alone just for the sake of waiting miracle....i have to put an end to all these nonsense....it really ruin my daily life....

action speaks louder than words. gotta really put in effort now....tmr going to library....start the war!!!

after exam...i got plenty more aims to achieve....

when i saw her, it reminds me a lot of things back when i was small....the feeling is unavoidable, the obsession is totally too much....i have been through so much....all ended up with zero outcome, my expectation is too much and the effort i put in is not enuf i guess....it is just plain dreaming.

I started to look into my past, what have i achieved? I spent most of my time doing unnecessary stuffs and acts, finding excuses for procrastination, and also for my promised. If i would take a step ahead or work harder, i would achieve more in life. Sometimes, I just tend to become lazy and stay at the same point, dreaming on wat could i possibly achieve and start to criticize other people, never discover that I was actually so hopeless.

studying articles was definitely hectic...i really struggle to understand some of the content, so many subjects need to read up on articles/journals, i really felt worried. now only 12 days left....do i still have time? lolz....felt boring and lazy as usual....not really motivated these days.

tmr is my dad birthday, and also the gathering of fellow football freestylers, of course i will celebrate with my dad lol

the football freestyling scene is hopeless....my pal told me that we will be travelling to europe to showcase football freestyle while waiting for our galfrens to do some shopping....hahaa looking forward to that moment, when we are all financially stable, maybe we will explain to our sons that, baba chase my dream b4...it just didnt work out in Malaysia.....nevertheless, it was a real memorable experience.

really looking forward to the end of exams.....now not really get used to studying life, coz chilling too much after assignments life...

just finish like 1 and 45 mins of freestyle football training....felt abit dizzy now lol...slept for 6 hours to resume back my sleeping time due to jet lag

supposedly i m able to master spin magics but it takes a lot of effort in my case...dunno why....saw ppl doing with ease but i cant get consistent in it...gotta try it again next training session....stuck with this move for such a long period....

able to do yoshhi combo(dunno how to name it) ady....jj move....now ready to take a bath and chill...then study for final....lol....FE and what? yar...AFR....yeah....

today is 23th....25th is coming soon...meeting her soon....duno wat will happen....just gotta be myself wahahahahhaa

rite now wat i wan is a disciplined life....i gotta quit all those bad habits and try to make myself always motivated for either freestyle or studying....been wasting too much time on unnecessary stuff....

i can see some improvement on atws, spin magic, uppers and knee stall....keep it up....dream high...no regrets....

PEACE

yeah assignments finally over.....getting back to freestyle these days...really have been concentrating on several tricks ytd....

time clock had already been terbalikan.....sleeping at around 4am these days...really bad...

not really having a bright future in freestyle.....where is the real freestyle??!!

Christmas coming soon....gonna plan well and perform well that day....wahahahha....she will be mine.....be brave!!

studying start soon....ciaoz!!

november 2011.....a day which i still single.....a day where i realize i really need a galfren...sounds desperate....

so far finished international finance coursework, still got 3 assignments ahead....kinda stressful.....

these days I m very tired mentally....hard to cope with stress....

been thinking about my future about freestyle, i guess i will just treat it as a hobby....my all rounder dream still far ahead of my reach....i dont even feel motivated to train now....

i nearly mastered spin magics, tatw and some other block combinations.....uppers i m reaching certain np level....but still i cant prove a point.......i didnt really achieve any milestones in freestyle....run out of luck maybe? or i really didnt train much and not much determination....

made alot of stupid mistakes when i tried to find galfren....didnt know it is such a big deal for me.....felt the peer pressure really....

now 515pm at the evening.....doing assignment later....raining outside i was supposed to train my spin magic, atw, co, tatw all those tricks....

met Nam the man fews days ago....didnt really enjoy playing futsal but manage to get two free caps...they were really nice.....i guess professional football freestyler is not an ideal job for me....maybe i will think football freestyle is really just a plain hobby in the future.....but one thing for sure, i sacrifice my time for football freestyle before....it is really the main part of my life....it really changed me alot.....it is like my religion....i gained self confidence from it....i gained self satisfaction....

In the next future, i gonna slow down my progress in freestyle....and try to complete sitdown,sole and picking up my groundmove again.....i really glad to have a fren called patrick to support wat i do......the best fren i ever have....if i didnt meet him....i would just wasting my time during my 20s.....

I was really slack on my studying....i guess my future already determined by my family.....gotta brush up my NLP skill now.....

gotta learn how to let go her now.....

peace XD keep on freestyling.....work hard for assignments.....overcome the boundaries! ciaoszz

spin magics

block tricks

atws

YEAR 3 assignment life starting soon....

fucking no mood....i was finding alot of excuses and reasons to why I stop getting performance and casting chance....i was having alot of up and down.....MONEY....is it really that important?

it makes ppl become evil-minded...and selfish....when interest become a job.....i cant have fun doing it...i guess i have to learn more

I was helping my dad in the office....to finish up some marine policy....damm it...made a small mistake today....

FUCK my tax return....290.83 usd! fuck.....i still didnt try to call the representative....gg

WFCC coming soon....how do i handle my emotion....how i handle those dissapointments....i have to figure out....chill and find the best way....i witness the best airmove in front of my eyes....is like telling me to stop freestyle now....i cant believe i was such weak in terms of freestyle level and EQ....

seriously, fuck it....I am fucked up now....

i need courage, need endurance, i need a disciplined life.....no more slacking.....

airmove for now, block for now! keep it up! lets see what can i achieve these few weeks....

somehow I break the ethic today....i spoke out my points....i should just keep it to myself seriously, it will just worsen the situation.

successful people will adapt to changes, learn from mistakes and willing to learn from others. I guess social norm will always be like that. a lot of people are fixed to their own way of mindset. They only perceive stuffs that they experience/watch before.

When jealousy take place, one will tend to bring out some unrelated points to contradict the current situation.

A champion or successful person will struggle in the process, where no1 will understand. Their final outcome will be recognized by ppl, the determination and hard work during the process are far more amazing than the outcome itself. It was just a reward.

I dun really care how ppl look at me or judge at me, i know my direction, i know my goal, it is just a matter of time, if u are happy with ur current life, i have no words.

I practice football freestyle for alot of strong reasons, it really influence me alot since the day i knew about it. Firstly, it lead me to some sort of ego-ness which is not that good. Now, i found my new direction of life, passion of life. I admit that i was not that kinda person who is ready to achieve first class and getting all those highly paid jobs, i am just not that type of person. But seriously, i always believe that ur future career is not totally judged by ur cert.....being ordinary is not my way of life, i just wanna achieve something in my life during my 20s age, why do i need to do that, because i dun wanna regret later......

fuck off all the people who think football freestyle is for those ppl who dun study or dunno how to study or beggar style or some other nonsense. If u like to enjoy watching football matches, pls dont compare football stars with us, because we are totally two different type of individuals and dun talk as if u are the football stars.

looking back on my previous posts, expectedly i was still very obsessed with freestyle football haha

now is 130am.....these past few weeks kinda unhealthy, always sleep late and end up watching random clips of youtube..

i met a bunch of new friends and i totally enjoy uni life now, i wished that i could meet them earlier....i was more happy and find more joy, especially when i speak out my points they will tend to appreciate more and more willingly to accept my point of views.

future is in doubt, i believe every guys(especially 20++ age) should have a big picture of what will be going on in future, what field of jobs they will be venturing etc.

I think there are limited choices for me, i m not one of the 'first class students' but i do believe in my own capabilities..

exams are approaching i dunno why the hell the AIS individual coursework is there to kacau our study time, guess that if we really follow the guidelines in module outline, that we spend like 40++ hours of self reading, we could handle time well....lol.....

To sum it up, i will keep freestyling because i hold it closest to my heart and i really wish to spend more time with my frens more, hanging out or just chilling around, it was definitely fun!

EXAMS....................HERE I COME i need help on studying!!

social life and assignment life, no time for freestyling.....i miss freestyling

sleeping at midnight almost everyday sucks unhealthy lifestyle but yet cant change....

start to enjoy food more since i follow my new bunch of frens

never felt so much fun b4 in campus......now i know who my true frens are, i m able to show my true form lol with sense of humour....

money and banking havent start.....tmr gonna ready to download some pdf files...then go back and do some real work!! i hate slacking or wasting time waiting for something such as waiting for meals.

i dun like to be boring so i wanna find something to do.....i wanna seize my day.....now is 242am d....damm hungry....gonna go back home tmr....i think i will write around 500 words this weekend for my assignment

my frens asked me to perform in nottingham but i wished i can improve 1st....i wanna bring better performance to crowds....i stop freestyling these few days....main reasons are assignments......

finally realize that i really like clubbing....lol.....and i get along well with my new frens......and i felt the confidence and comfort in me.....i think i dun need a galfren for now....cant really find the right one and i havent finish my tasks on hand....i really wonder if freestyle is kinda wasting time and no future....but i just cant resist it and i adi reached so far i dun wanna stop myself....it is my life.....

weekend is nice....spend more time with family, rushing for assignments

DDI - CRM reports

Money and banking- 500 words!

most importantly, i can spend more time on freestyling! FREESTYLLLEEE ROCKS!!!i wanna get back the touch and flow....it has been long time since i played with my fren....

i need all the frenships and i need all the exposure i wish to get.....gonna finish hell lot of assignments one by one and study......curiously waiting for my summer break to reach.....wonder wat will i do during that time....

criticism made me more imba and i will keep on sticking to my own goal.....

i have some long term goals....but yet i havent show any sign of accomplishment....so haters....be ready....i just need several years......action speak louder than words......

I dun wanna live an ordinary life....i wan an interesting life, yet it is still successful....FTW!!!!

RIP to japan victims....god bless them.

middle of a night, a bag, a plastic bottle of water, towel, keys, shoes, football

juggle 100 times....warmed up.....screw up some tricks......getting better....got back the touch.... neighbors busy of their stuff and talking.....some neighbors look at me in an unusual way...didnt get to know what they think of me.....it is a lifestyle which is very rare in Msia i guess. I met singaporean which share the same passion as me...guess that my level didnt really live up to their expectation....but time will tell....

i will bear with every circumstances which i will face in future....i have to organize my time well enuf....

right now, i have to clean up my stinky room which was full of my sweats when i was training my uppers....i never thought it could stink like that.....

assignments going on....approaching deadline....not feeling well today.....just spent my time with my new matchball didnt really get the hang of it....my body condition was too weak.....

i m not gonna play futsal next week...honestly speaking....i dun like futsal....and i dun wana waste my time on that...plus it need petrol and fee......

my fren and me are the only active chinese freestylers in Msia....this was my dream since few years ago....it started out abit slow....but i reach certain boundaries and i discover another side of me.....i become more tolerant, become less moody, enjoy life more....

i wish FREESTYLE football that i learn these few days, these coming few months, these few years will reach some milestones that i ever dream of.....it sounds abit ambiguous but i trust that even i didnt make a living out of it, i will still achieve something in my life....that other ppl wun achieve and never taste b4....

i taste the bitterness of training alone.....fed up b4....dropped the ball alot of times.....training on the same moves over and over again....while no1 is watching....the happiest moment would be meeting with the only fren that motivate me....frankly speaking, he bring up my passion of freestyle

Freestyle is an extremely hard sport to train.....and it could yield positive comments or another way round.....busy uni life is coming soon....everyday i daydream of mastering old moves, getting new tricks done....am i too obsess with freestyle? i not so sure......

I LOVE FREESTYLE football....and this is not easy when u r at Malaysia, where different race get all the performance chance with their easy tricks while same race are not being understandable of what u r doing.....

future will tell....today is 13 march....lets see after 3 months....what can i achieve with this and how much improvement i have gained.....AIRMOVE TIME peac out!

3th of FEB,

some freestylers from singapore get to come to Msia KL to meet patrick and me....it was a magnificent experience as i never see such smooth block tricks b4....

so far this month has been a break through for me, i made new frens....discover new potential in myself....discover some really nice frens who share the same mindset as me....

somehow i have stop my uppers practice because for the sake of 'all rounder'

i still got some sick uppermove to learn....but i guess block trick is my concern now as i slowly mastering the 'block trick variation combo' it is even more addictive than uppers! WAHHAHA

after block tricks, i can move on to some atws...which need more intense training than b4....

week 4 now, Assignments are approaching....i guess i have to write out a full plan of what i study now dy....

peace out , i m enjoying my life now.....

happy new year !

lol

now is 5.05am , the same day i m going to sit for the 1st exam....financial management...the toughest paper throughout the exam period....i think i m quite well prepared....but need to c my luck anot....because i just did all the seminar questions....with the help with my bro who came back from US....how lucky i m ......hahahaa

sooner or later.....after FM....subsequently all the other subjects are going to be held for exam....that means exam is going to end soon hahaha what a great news that is.....and 20th i can go to singapore and buy adidas matchball!!! yes....my airmove will have some obvious improvement soon....not just some plain uppermove then, when i will be performing....

exam stress really severe....i m trying to lower down the stress level....

peace out! exam in 9 hours woohoo.....but i cant sleep now because my body clock all terbalik d.....wish me luck in FM!