yes, i assumed no1 would notice the existence of this blog. it is 330am now, 2 more days for my last exam of my studying career, yes. mixed feelings I have high EQ i supposed, but somehow i got my own limit, sometimes I tricked myself. yes. but I really don't like how most of the guys behave, maybe i am the special one, being far too kind. I hate this feeling, I gonna stop all this. I HATE this...I deserve more respect. yes, I still putting hope on something I was trying hard to give up, but yet I cant. This is stubborn but I felt right doing it no matter what. Even it is quite controversial at 1st or in future, i still gonna go for it, i dun wanna make myself regret. I have been thinking so much and spending too much time on theory wise, without really putting effort into implementing my goals in life, I have been lacking so much general knowledge or whatever that i miss during my childhood or adolescence time, gladly that i have a super nice family that i really enjoy spending time with them these few years, i found myself spending time with them quite comfortable these few years compare to last time, maybe i ady figure out family love is always the best eternally, whilst I not really sure about friendship. I hope i still can hang out with my friends, but all this while I might get disgusted about what they did, I really duno sometimes, maybe it was my own problem, but sometimes i really need more respect, maybe I was really different with them. I need more appreciation, not teasing. I am still far away from my ideal life. Once again, I will try hard to fulfill them these few years, putting criticism aside, I guess i really have to work it out and work harder than i used to be. They are obstacles to my life but i gonna embrace myself, stand firmly, shout to the sky, stay individual and appreciate my own self-value, I got my passion of life, that is my inspiration, this is how i live my life, in a very special way and i would not change myself. I love being myself. FUCK all the problems, gonna sleep now, gonna make up my mind. Stay firmly, faith is in your own hand CP. I can definitely do it no matter what, fuck haters go and live ur ordinary life and continue to bring me the challenge. I would face them as a lesson and find what i really lack of, FUCK YOuuuuuu!!!!

laid off a bad habit today...hopefully i can continue... resume back to training today. gosh...CO atw and spin magic takes like forever hahaa....airmove is really hard.... screwed up Business Ethic but who cares...i just wanna graduate man...second upper is way far than wat i can achieve...i guess i m fairly satisfied so far with my marks...lol...kinda useless... two papers left...aihzz...so sad

no fucking stamina!! damm regret....