effectively using NLP skills to keep me moving these few days, keep me motivated and I was really staying productive at most of the moment, today i break my own rule, i touched the bad habit again.
assignment was a huge stress for me, I cant find a suitable way to explain to her what we should really do for the sake of the whole group. Why she make life so hard for herself and others as well. sien.
didnt contact her for few days ady, a lot of question marks raise inside my head.
fuck it i hate staying inferior among my friends.
week 7 ending soon. sooner or later i will be moving into insurance industry, great eastern life insurance is really scary, keep convincing me...luckily i still know what i wan in future, hopefully i can reject him if he really call me.
life is uncertain, I have yet to reach any milestone in freestyle, 2 more months to enjoy freestyle while it last, i really hope i can make a business out of it when i will approach age around 40, job satisfaction is far more important than income in my opinion. at least now I m thinking like this, who knows after i start working i will find out all this while what i was doing is crap, i doubt that.
all the wrong moves in the wrong situation, I didnt play my own role well in my life, i made several big mistakes since i entered this Uni, i think i was trying to break through, but certainly what i was doing are all crap, I do not think much now, i just wanna finish my graduation and focus on my goals in life. Bullshit.
found myself really different with others. found myself naive because i was given education system from CH, seriously i hate that school, it gives bad impact on my life, i shouldnt have follow the route. I hate it when I was being an introvert and learning nothing at those ages. At least now i learned alot though.
patrick did a nori clutch, what a great satisfaction to c my freestyle fren finish nail the trick where we were dreaming bout it several years ago, i thought i was rejected for the commercial, but then it was nice to finally get myself a place in my 1st ever commercial, the experience and satisfaction are valued more than the rm800 itself. I would still fight for wat i love to do. Freestyle is still my main source of motivation in life, i learn how to endure more challenge.
520am now, eat whole day today, wonder I could have more time for hitting the gym, maintaining a great diet after i graduate anot. I think i will be extremely busy and tired after i graduate. I dun really look forward to a good relationship now, find it really not that important anymore. I got more freedom now.
mistakes are made, lessons are learnt. I hope i can really bounce back , be myself and enjoy the last sem with laughter, joy with my friends. i will sorely miss uni life, the slacking life, the having fun with frens life.
time to sleep, afternoon class tmr, havent take pictures yet, should do it soon.
I have made by far the worst ever mistake and i face it already, i hope to minimize my mistake in the future, gain more confidence and take control of my life more.
Peace out, looking forward to the commercial! finishing assignment and graduation trip!
freestyle progress-
co-atw-co? lol
clipper- havent nail it
sole stall- need better commitment
uppers- satisfied lol
sitdown- emptyness
handstand- ? lol cant even do a single baby freeze, what a limitation, my core muscles are weak... ==
