so far finished international finance coursework, still got 3 assignments ahead....kinda stressful.....
these days I m very tired mentally....hard to cope with stress....
been thinking about my future about freestyle, i guess i will just treat it as a hobby....my all rounder dream still far ahead of my reach....i dont even feel motivated to train now....
i nearly mastered spin magics, tatw and some other block combinations.....uppers i m reaching certain np level....but still i cant prove a point.......i didnt really achieve any milestones in freestyle....run out of luck maybe? or i really didnt train much and not much determination....
made alot of stupid mistakes when i tried to find galfren....didnt know it is such a big deal for me.....felt the peer pressure really....
now 515pm at the evening.....doing assignment later....raining outside i was supposed to train my spin magic, atw, co, tatw all those tricks....
met Nam the man fews days ago....didnt really enjoy playing futsal but manage to get two free caps...they were really nice.....i guess professional football freestyler is not an ideal job for me....maybe i will think football freestyle is really just a plain hobby in the future.....but one thing for sure, i sacrifice my time for football freestyle before....it is really the main part of my life....it really changed me alot.....it is like my religion....i gained self confidence from it....i gained self satisfaction....
In the next future, i gonna slow down my progress in freestyle....and try to complete sitdown,sole and picking up my groundmove again.....i really glad to have a fren called patrick to support wat i do......the best fren i ever have....if i didnt meet him....i would just wasting my time during my 20s.....
I was really slack on my studying....i guess my future already determined by my family.....gotta brush up my NLP skill now.....
gotta learn how to let go her now.....
peace XD keep on freestyling.....work hard for assignments.....overcome the boundaries! ciaoszz
