not really excited about CNY...dunno why...maybe i m too old enough for that excitement....anyway...quite fed up with all those horoscope and Chinese zodiac sign total bull shit....all they say was some general cold reading information which could apply on everyone ignorant human beings....I was once a victim who believe in such a thing b4....but now i realized it was all plain joke....and money making industry perhaps...

somehow i felt like everyone was hiding themselves with mask...pretending all the way....i guess it was part of the social skills and lives....

next few days gonna be nice because i will get to see my friends soon....

smoking and drinking is out of my dictionary....they should leave my life sooner or later....i hate both of them....i dunno why there is a conformity of guys smoking together....

didnt freestyle today....i guess i was being myself the best when i was freestyling....the 'live in own world' of me still exist and i cant find any reason that why i shouldnt continue to do this....some say this is immature but i felt comfortable staying at my own path, doing wat i like, ignoring wat i ignore, future is still on my hand. Chinese have to work hard....thats all....maybe i will awake someday...but i am fairly satisfied with my state of mind now....maybe when i finally venture into future career in future, i will find myself for being such a dumb ass because i was like 'staying in own world'

the 5th day of CNY is a big day for me, really looking 4ward to it....too many friends to socialize.....will I perform freestyle? still dunno yet....i think the possibility of getting drunk that day is higher....